I went to see my doctor Friday and he asks me whether I’m experiencing any stress? Was that a trick question or was he just being funny? Hum! Let’s see, Jon is trying to sell the company, I had a talk to prepare and give on 7/13, there’s the upcoming move but we don’t know where we are moving to, this back pain is ranking right up there with childbirth pain at times, and then there’s life. Of course I’m stressed how can one live in America and not be stressed? I’m not anxious and I truly trust God to come through but internally my body is not doing well with everything going on.
On June 23rd BiM (our company) was given a thumbs up, a YES, a green light by ______ company. Needless to say we are thrill but cautiously excited as we have been down this road before. Now my life sort of feels like the Bill Murray character in Groundhog Day, I wake up each day waiting for it to be “the day” but it’s still the same old same with no new insight or written offer. The day turns into weeks but hopefully not months. So here we are almost three weeks later and still nothing to back up the verbal yes. This past week began with certainty that we should receive the written offer from the potential buyer only to basically be told they were going to slow the process down but were still really interested and planned to continue talks after their vacation – sort of an oxymoron. Needless to say this was not exciting news for us and seeing Jon’s face after he read the email Monday was a sight I will not soon forget. By God’s grace and prayers the deal seems to be back on track and they are working hard (so we are told) to get BiM an offer by next week before the lead M&A guy takes off the month of August. Can you imagine having a whole month for vacation? Actually that sounds wonderful. Anyway another week has come and gone and the discouragement slowly continues to grow as I have been through this scenario before only to have it NOT end favorably.
The blessing in disguise this week was preparing a talk for the “Get Trained” class Jon & I are participating in at church (Austin Stone). Being in the word and preparing has helped me keep a God focus. I am so thankful for the anchor I have in my Father. I cling to Him and trust that His timing is perfect. I do have those wavering moments where I plummet downward but as I get back into God’s word and focus on His truths, promises and past deeds I return to the secuity of His hand. I allow Him to influence my life and it is only during those faith moments the yo-yo is firmly held in the Fathers loving hands. It’s my choice where I stay.
I will soon publish my talk Who or What is Influencing You?